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The fall of freadom;
The weakness that comes with knowing you have never tased freedom.

I've never been allowed to do what I wanted. Even now; my own income, my own car ... my own priorities. I knowm that if I went, I would have to declare it. If I had a called, if someone called it would be explained. And disobidience ... any sort of disobidience would be punished.
Even if I had my means entirely, she would still run me. I will always be the youngest child.

The last time I cried while writing, I'd heard what sounded convincingly like my mother saying she hated me.
I know it's not what she said but it felt the same.

Then I cried for lack of notice.
Now my tears are shed from a lack of power; a festering pain that stems from knowing simply that "I'm not allowed." If I am forbidden from it or it from me then I will not complain. That's all they see. I will cry for it in my room and simply do what I'm told ... and that's all they see ...

Sometimes I wish they'd see the tears I leave on the floor.
  • Mood: Bitter
  • Listening to: My thoughts ... they scare me
  • Reading: The breaths between my sighs
  • Watching: My computer screen go fuzzy
  • Playing: with my toes
  • Eating: Alcohol
  • Drinking: Alcohol


New Zealand
I'm only living in Australia.
I'm am not from this place.

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Bosslogix Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2012
Thanks for the watch :)
Yaoi-Fan-Girl-x3 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2009
Thanks for the fave -^^-
Mariketa Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2009
thank you for the :+fav:, it means a lot to me! :iconheartemote:
corruptangel315 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2009
Thanks for the :+fav: on "Razor Kissed Wrists" :D
PandasAreMine Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2009
Thank you for the fav
aruarian-dancer Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2009  Professional General Artist
Thank you for faving "Elixer of Life".
mitchellnelson Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2009  Professional General Artist
thanks for faving [link] A Reflection of Oneself!!!
Sevahj Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2009
No thanks required. It's a fantastic piece of art.
navybluewings13 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2009
Hola! I found you =) so add me if you want to
Sevahj Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2009
Yay!!! :D sorry I haven't responded sooner, my laptop was kinda hijacked and I couldn't get to anything.
But I'm back now :) and I will add you, if I can manage it ... say hello to the technically inept :(
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